I haven't wanted to talk much recently

We had another ultrasound today. Things are looking good. Baby is measuring right on schedule at 7w2d with a heartbeat of 156 bpm. I should be thrilled, right? But instead, my anxiety level is just ratcheting up.

Is there any way I could just fast forward through the next 2 weeks?

I am just not in a good place right now. Today is Mr. Rhody's birthday, and I yelled at him this morning. I yelled at him because I was frustrated that all of my shirts are too tight, and he said, "Maybe that is a good sign." I yelled at him because he should know better. I have never had a problem with pregnancy symptoms. They are no indication of a successful pregnancy for me.

I got my flu shot today as well. She did the injection, turned around to grab the bandage, and then didn't know where to put the bandage because there was no drop of blood on my shoulder. I clotted instantly. I wanted to cry. Why can't the doctors see that this is not right?

I have a meeting with the OB Medicine specialists tomorrow. I don't want them to pat me on the head and tell me not to worry myself. They don't know that. I just want someone who is willing to look at this critically. I just don't want to have to lose this baby too for that to happen.

I haven't been posting on the Bump much. I haven't been talking to my friends. I just have nothing to say. I just want to go and hide.