Not pregnant

I woke up this morning to a significant temperature drop. I laid in bed for a bit, debating whether or not to test. In the end, I decided I should just test or I'd be thinking about it all day. After all, I had already bought the tests. Of course, it was negative.

I'm not super-upset about not being pregnant. Disappointed, yes, but I can be patient. What I am a little upset about is that I let myself get so carried away again. What is with my body, that my luteal phase now seems to have super-high temperatures and all of the symptoms of being pregnant? It's an awful tease.

I've decided I'm going to sign up for the mentoring program that I'd mentioned in the last post. I can't plan my life around TTC. If I do get pregnant and have to take some time off, Mr. Rhody and I will figure it out. We always do.

Tomorrow's the day!

So I'm 12 dpo today, and feeling positive. Yesterday I was convinced I was not pregnant; today I am convinced I am. And thus goes the 2-week-wait.

My temperature went down a bit this morning, but not enough to make me worry. I am feeling pretty awful right now, nausea and decently bad heartburn. I stopped on the way home from work to pick up pregnancy tests. I'm sort of embarassed to admit that I want to test right now, and it's taking some effort to wait until tomorrow morning.

In other news, an email came around at work about volunteering to mentor foster kids. I am really interested in doing this, but hesitant to sign up for anything while we are TTC, especially since the email specified they want a minimum of a year's commitment. Then again, if I keep putting things off because we are TTC or I am pregnant, I will never do anything; after all, it's already been 10 months. Mr. Rhody thinks I should go for it. I'm going to think about it a few days and make my final decision. I would really like the opportunity to make a difference for a child, especially now after all of the problems we've been having with TTC, but, at the same time, I don't want to overcommit myself.