10 weeks!

10 weeks today, and I'm feeling pretty optimistic!

As an aside, I can say the worst thing about having had 2 missed miscarriages is that you no longer trust your body. It's so scary for me to embrace this pregnancy. I hate the idea that that baby could die and I could have no idea and still walk around feeling pregnant. In a way, it makes me feel like a bad mother because shouldn't I know something as simple as whether my baby is alive or not?

But that's beside the point, because today is a day to celebrate being in the double digits for weeks completed. As of today, Baby Rhody is officially a fetus. It's a great milestone.

I would like to say that, now that we are at 10 weeks, I officially heard the baby's heartbeat on the Doppler. Well, I think I did, but it was still kind of quiet and far away. I could catch readings of 170-180 for a moment on the screen, but I could never really get a good lock on things. I did hear a lot of whistling and whooshing, which I think is the placenta. I'm not ready to consider this a success though. I'm going to give it a few more days.

Remember a few weeks ago how I said that I was feeling really, surprisingly good this pregnancy? Well that ended this past week. Around Thursday / Friday, the "morning sickness" really started to settle in. One night poor Mr. Rhody made potato-leek soup for dinner, and the smell was SO AWFUL that I had to hide in the bedroom. I still haven't thrown up, but I've come close.

I have an appointment with the midwife on Thursday after work, where I think she's going to try her Doppler. I have decided against the NT scan, after wavering a bit this weekend, but I think I might ask for an u/s around 12.5 weeks just to check on the baby since we lost the first one so close to there.

I have to say, this pregnancy is going by much faster than the last 2, and that is a Godsend!