Phantom Symptoms

The phantom symptoms started yesterday, at 6 dpo. I have been on edge, irritable, but maybe that woman at work really was difficult and my irritability was warranted. Last night, I was hungry but nothing sounded good, but Mr. Rhody felt the same way and he's certainly not pregnant. I was exhausted yesterday, but maybe it was just a hard day at the office. And then today I can't sleep, but maybe that's just because I'm so excited over my temp rise. Heartburn, gassy-ness, cramps--there has to be another reason for them all.

Hmph.

I told Mr. Rhody last night that the phantom symptoms had started, and I was scared. I am scared that these things are all in my head and I'm making myself crazy. I am scared to be pregnant again and start this Lovenox therapy and scared of the possibility of another miscarriage, another D&C. At the same time, I hope I'm pregnant, because we want a child so very much and we just have to keep trying until we get there.

We're going on vacation for a week on Wednesday, so I'm planning on testing on Tuesday morning at 11 dpo so I can get the doctor's office to call in the prescription for he Lovenox before we leave. Tuesday seems so soon, and I worry about it being too early, but I promised myself I'd see how I felt and figure it out then.

2 days ago, I was feeling nothing, and, had you asked me, I would have swore this cycle was a bust. Now, I'm not so sure.